There is something about Autumn that is absolutely beautiful. Maybe it’s the changing of the leaves, the crisp cool air, or the fact that it’s a new season which means a fresh start. I’m a huge supporter of the summer months, the warmth and sunshine always puts me in a great mood. However, I’m trying really hard to appreciate the beauty of Autumn and letting go of my love for the summer days. I’m learning to be grateful for living in a city that experiences all four seasons, even though winter is a time of year that I find myself most depressed, I plan on trying to change that this year and enjoy the snowfalls and the cold weather.
With that I give you just one thing I’m thankful for this year. Yes, I could write a list of one hundred things easily but if I had to narrow it down and only choose one, this would be it:
As most of you know I quit my 9-5 design job in April of 2014. For many reasons that I won’t go into, it just wasn’t the right fit. So I saved up money and after a year I put my two weeks in, not really knowing what I was doing. I didn’t have any jobs lined up, or any clients to work with, I just knew I needed out. I spent some time working on a new website, creating new projects, and bringing my brand to life.
Four months after quitting my job I decided to try out freelancing. I followed so many talented freelancers on social media and it looked like something I would want to try out myself. I gave birth to Forth and Wild and started blogging regularly and at that moment it felt right. I signed up for courses, continued to educate myself on running my own business, the clients slowly started to trickle in and I thought I was on to something good.
I wish I could say I’m one of those people who are constantly motivated, who are always working on their business and posting on their blog regularly. I feel like I was that person when I first started out but I’ve lost most of that motivation. I’m finding it harder and harder to keep up with things. I’m almost always stressed out about what I’m doing with my career, am I doing the right thing? I’ve been really trying to figure out what I want, and what feels right. When I see successful people blogging daily, creating their own courses, sending out newsletters every week I get frustrated with myself and wonder why can’t I do that, what is stopping me from becoming that? When it comes down to it, I just don’t think it’s meant for me.
So what does all this mean?
I’m not even sure. All I know is that I’m thankful to be given the chance to take this year to explore and figure out what I really want to be doing in life. 2016 may be the year I go back to a 9-5 office job, or maybe it’s the year that my business will really take off. Time will tell, until then I’m so grateful for all the amazing people who I’ve come across this past year. I’ve learned more than I could’ve ever imagined in 2015 so I’m hopeful 2016 will be even better and it will lead me in the right direction.