The Past 4 Months

I’ve never had so many doctors appointments in my life. Below is a timeline of the past 4 months. I can’t believe all those appointments have lead up to one day to remove an organ. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t absolutely terrified for surgery.

January 10 – Found lump
January 13 – Went to walk in clinic – confirmed it was a thyroid nodule
January 19 – Went for an ultrasound + blood work
January 26 – Went to family doctor who referred me to an Endocrinologist
February 10 – Met Endocrinologist who referred me to Toronto General for biopsy
February 19 – Went to Toronto General for biopsy
March 4 – Went to Endocrinologist who confirmed it was cancer. Referred to surgeon
March 12 – Met with surgeon who booked me for a CT scan
March 27 – Went to Women’s College Hospital for CT scan
April 9 – Pre admission appointment to go over surgery
April 10 – Surgery

Despite the whole c word it has been a pretty good experience. I’ve never had to wait that long to see a doctor, my appointments have come a lot quicker than I was originally told. I was even able to meet my surgeon the same day her receptionist called me to book an appointment. All the doctors and nurses who have come into my life have been really nice and caring. The worst part of all this is the waiting around. Looking above it makes me sick knowing I waited 13 days to find out my biopsy results. How did I even get through that?

I cried a lot before knowing about the cancer mainly because I had no idea what was going on with my body. After I found out the tears stopped. I don’t think I cried once after finding out, or maybe I did, It’s all a blur. Definitely not as much. I can feel a mental breakdown coming on though. In 10 days I won’t have my thyroid. In 10 days I’ll have to begin taking a pill for the rest of my life. In 10 days I’ll have a scar. ugh. I’m scared.

On the positive side in 10 days I’ll have this thing removed from me. Hopefully it will make me feel better, hopefully it cures all the issues I’ve been having, HOPEFULLY they can balance out my medication quickly so I don’t suffer some of the horrible side effects.

Thanks for listening. I woke up really scared and angry this morning. I guess that’s why I’m writing this post. :l