I’m so happy April is behind us. I came back from our trip motivated and excited to get back to work, but that came and went almost instantly. There were days I didn’t feel like myself, I found myself anxious and unsure. Pressure headaches, stomach pains, and a lot of self doubt took up my days. Everything on my to-do list got pushed away and I become unmotivated. It got so bad I scheduled a doctors appointment to have blood work done to make sure everything is okay, especially my thyroid levels.
I like to tell myself I have no stress but in reality I have way more than one person should have. Unfortunately the cause behind all my stress is likely freelancing, it’s tough, yo. I’m constantly worried about draining my bank account and not being able to pay rent, student loans, etc. Some days are really good and others I realize I should probably just bite the bullet and get a full-time office job, at least the money stress would be gone.
Another huge stress factor for me is my health. After dealing with thyroid cancer I feel like at any moment my life could flip upside down again, with something a lot more serious this time. I’m basically just waiting to find another lump, or find out more bad news about something, it’s a horrible way to live and I want to find a way to avoid thinking like this.
Clearly I need some sort of change in my life so I’ve decided to take part in the #100daychallenge and focus on my body and mind. The whole idea is to incorporate something good for my body, mind, or both, each day. I’ve thought about what I can do to better myself each day and below are some ideas I’ve come up with.
- Workout at least 3 days a week. Getting in the workout groove is soooo hard for me, but once I get started I love it and can’t get enough. I want that back in my life, I want to feel good about my body again.
- Journal every night and reflect on the day.
- Drink lots of water.
- Make healthy food choices.
- I think this might be the hardest one > turn off my laptop and phone each night two hours before bed (eep!)
- Practice yoga.
If you know me you know I have crazy insomnia. I toss and turn until 2-3am and it drives me nuts. I’m constantly glued to a screen so this will be the biggest challenge for me but I’m excited to see how it plays out. In order to make this work I’ve come up with a nightly routine to distract me from the screen and hopefully clear my mind before hitting the pillow.
New Nightly Routine
Thankfully we have quite a large bedroom so I want to make a peaceful corner. Around 9pm each night I plan on rolling out my yoga mat, practicing some light yoga, lighting some candles, put some calm tunes on, and rest my mind from the daily stress. I’ll end the night with journaling and climb in bed.
The #100daychallenge for the most part takes part on Instagram, I’m not sure if I’ll be able to post a photo everyday with my #100daysofbodyandmind and I’m not going to stress out over it, however I will likely blog about my struggles and achievements frequently.
What I hope to accomplish
With this new nightly routine and adding exercise I hope to feel good about myself again. I hate my body and I’m way too hard on myself, I want to be at peace with my mind, my body, and life in general. I can’t wait to document my process. You can follow along with my hashtag #100daysofbodyandmind and check back regularly as I will be posting here about my experience.
Talk soon, friends!